Saturday, June 6, 2009

We gotta stay positive

Before I get to the positive vibe, here are two words for you: I'm tired. That probably won't come as much of a surprise to anyone who reads this blog (both of you), but I just had to say it. I am physically and emotionally drained. And, quite frankly, I'm finding it hard to keep up with this blog. Shit happens, and I want to write about it. But I have found it very hard lately to muster the energy to do that. I guess I'm not a very good blogger.

I've also been thinking about taking the main focus of this blog off of my son's issues and throwing in some more stuff about me. Yes, I started this blog to loosely document what goes on in the life of a parent of a recovering addict who also suffers from severe depression. And since I started the blog, writing about that stuff has been good therapy for me. But lately I've been coming to terms with something: Even though my son's issues are a huge part of my life, I've got to work harder to see past the negatives and not let my son consume me 24/7/365. If I don't, I think it'll kill me.

Granted, I'm not the most interesting person in the world. But I do love to cook. And I do love music. So if I blogged about the latest hunk of meat I grilled, or posted a favorite recipe, or recommended an album that I'm currently digging, would that be such a bad thing? I'm thinking it still might be kinda sorta interesting to the two of you. And even if it wasn't, maybe the different subject matter would help generate some positive vibes inside my tired, too-often-negative mind. That would definitely make it worthwhile, no?

So stay tuned for the new and improved (and perhaps slightly more upbeat) "My Life As 3D" blog. Coming soon. I think.

P.S. You didn't think I'd get through this post without mentioning something about my son, did you? There's been a lot of stuff that has happened since the last time I posted. But I'm not going to dwell on the negatives. Instead, I'll mention a positive. on Thursday, my son's sponsor invited him to go to Cedar Point (an amusement park in Sandusky, Ohio) with him and a couple of other young people from the program. My wife and I were so grateful that our son was invited to go. And he had a great time.

"We gotta stay positive."
--From the song "Stay Positive" by the Hold Steady

(Photo courtesy of my friend Sam.)


  1. I'm thinking you weren't counting me, so, at least three people read your blog. I'm currently not writing much on my blog, so I know how it goes up and down. One think I've learned from family systems theory is that when I work on myself, other relationships improve. So throwing the focus more on yourself sounds healthy. I'd love to hear your recipes or what you're listening to. Peace to you and yours.

  2. Four: mike! ...wouldn't mind good news/recipes, my mum's looking for new slow-cook Jewish Brisket sauce ideas if you have any :)

  3. Five - There are more of us than you think out here!

    You should write about whatever moves you at the moment. There is nothing wrong with blogging to share what gives you pleasure as well as blogging for a release.

    Peace ~

  4. You also have some Texas readers. We used to live in GP and a mutual friend alerted me to your blog. Thanks for sharing your story.