Monday, November 16, 2009

My heart aches

My heart aches.

It aches for my son, who has been struggling for more than five years now with depression, anxiety disorder, and addiction.

It aches because I know he is alone. He has no friends his own age. He really has no friends at all, except for fellow members of the program. I can only imagine how hard it must be for him to deal with everything he’s dealing with without having any peers to lean on. Or talk to. Or go to a movie with. Or take a walk with. Or just hang out with.

My heart especially aches because I know this is something my son will have to figure out and resolve on his own. And I know socializing is so very hard for him.

I hope and pray every day that a breakthrough will come and that someone will come into my son’s life and help make him feel “normal” again. He doesn’t deserve to be all alone.


  1. ever since my eldest daughter turned 3 and upon reading your blog, i've learned what a curse parenthood can be. my eldest is 5 now and i already see some of my less than desirable characteristics in her and my youngest one. i feel for you dean. and i hope that your son finds someone he can lean on. we all need that someone. - Adam G.

    1. well if he didnt replace his friends with this addiction and everything that comes with it, he'd have his friends

  2. You could be writing about my son. My heart aches, too.